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Giving In - Giving Up

Giving In - Giving Up I've been thinking about the future of my relationship with Ry. I want to help him with what stresses him out the most and help him relieve some tension about that subject but it doesn't help when he feels he should deal with it on his own and that he is. No - dealing with it for the last year. And what has changed? Was there a plan? And did it follow through to this year? What was sacrificed? What was gained? My back hurts - my diet is not the best right now cause of me feeling sick on and off. Maybe after work when I get home I'll go for a run. Or should I go visit my sister today? :/ Hmmmm. The choices. I miss DJ - he'd post an update on Facebook at times but :/ I hope he's safe. Lol - he told me not to worry - and whoever is dumb enough to mess with someone who was just there to train for Mui Thai - deserves a butt kicking. I officially feel - stuck. Unhappy. And disgusted with myself for reasons I won't explain. But I know things will

Breaking Hearts

Breaking Hearts Some say that it's hard to be single. No it's probably the easiest thing. Hard is breaking the heart of someone you truly care for. Things are not the same - and no matter how hard you try, will it be the same? When things have already changed? Trying is better than giving up - right? I no longer know what is what anymore. Sometimes I feel change comes a little too late - their time limit to show what they have to offer is up. Either one or both will feel short changed and the love is not the same love because of one clear fact - the honeymoon is over. And in their own ways both sides will feel like a sucker. And slowly nothing will ever be the same. I'm tired - been feeling sick on and off for the last few weeks. Almost everything I eat gives me a stomach ache - the reason I said almost because the only thing I recall that don't are fruits. Maybe I should just eat fruits for a while. Yesterday I met up with Esjay to go over stuff - what ended our meetin

How would you love me

How would you love me How would you love me if all my days were yours? Would we walk along the gravel or the beaches shore? Would you hold my hand with pride and claim to the world I'm yours? would you hide my name in shame and let no one know? Would you say "I love you" and mean it - every word? Would you hold me tight at night and give praise that I'm your girl? Will you make me smile and laugh - every single day? Make me happy with our adventures and have our times of play? Will we seek the sunsets and sunrises on those special days? Will you make me a hearty breakfast with some sausage and some eggs? Will you give me a special nickname or simply call me "babes"? Will you show your love and affection no matter our dismays? Will you find a way for me to fall back in love with rain? Kiss me and hold me close on sunny, rainy, snowy days? Would you leave me morning messages - to dress warmly cause it's cold? Make silly faces in our pictures to laugh at w

Running On Low

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I asked my sister and a dear friend a question: If you had to choose between someone that gives you tingles - but you don't have fun with. OR someone you have tons of fun with but no tingles. Who would you choose? Neither of them said any particular one - it's pretty hard choice. I'm running on low, have been working hard - spending hard too to catch up on the things I really really want to do and produce. Downtown work has been hectic - our company is growing. I actually worked a 13 hour day. That was insanity! but after wards my boss took me to dinner. He thanked me for the hard work that truly without me he doesn't know where we would stand today. He assures me our company is going to grow. I feel this updated change as well. I mean when I started working there was I would say the brink of 2008-2009? It wasn't soon after when we updated our computers - now another overhaul this time computer and programs. We're taking on more clients than ever a

A Long While

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A Long While It's been a long while since I blogged. I wonder if anyones missed me. I've officially breached 600 on YouTube and 100 followers on twitter. Any much of a prize? Not really. I wish I did more to work towards the fan base to cultivate it but I'm not a robot and there just aren't enough hours in the day. The Canucks are playing tonight and I hope they win. The city would go nuts! And so much more love would bubble over our city. There just isn't enough in this city that to me seems to grow a little cold sometimes. But I shouldn't say that. Yesterday I went to Eat Vancouver. I'll post some pics later. I saw a Canucks cake - it could have been better. I snacked on bread - chips - yogurt - sorbet - sausage - somosa - rice - miso - oyster - raspberry beer - had a margarita . Yeah got a little buzzed - all in one place! I thought it was interesting. On my way there however I was walking to the skytrain. A man with 2 chocolate labs are barking out