Behind SyloArts

Another weird dream And it makes me awaken so late this morning. I just didn't want to wake up. When I did it was 6:26 fantastic! >_< . What was I dreaming about? - well - had a tall Asian guy that kept following through out a mall / marketplace. I tried ignoring him but it didn't work. He follows me and I try to tell him about someone I know - and how talented they were. He knew them too - but didn't like my friend very much. There was something about being stranded somewhere and it being very cold I gave into spooning with him. He tries to tell me of his great and privileged life. I don't really remember how He looks like - but - ehh. I also remember at the end of my dream I became mad at my sister with the thought she had more photos of her Ethan and grandma than with me. Is it something I care that much? Personally- I don't feel like it's something that I would be. Weird. I don't remember much of the rest. But I am still sleepy. I think I may ne...

Prioritizing Well- Bf thought to ask if I was flirting with anyone. My answer is NO - I just don't have that much time to spend flirting out of the handful of replies I make on Facebook / emails/ Texts and what not. I have slipped back from painting. DJ was over last night as we worked on editing the video for his project. It turned out all grainy and still need to figure out why the whole time till the end. The video still isn't up yet. I get a text this morning from Bf wondering if I had taken his loaf of bread - really? - NO. I had more than enough to carry yesterday with my bag so heavy I had to switch arms while walking down the street every so often. I was looking at my goals in life yesterday night and had felt I've suddenly stopped pursuing them which I should never had. DJ tells me well be knocking Whale Watching off my list hopefully when we are in Tofino. I'm getting random pains lately- maybe cause I'm hungry. Mornings are the worst when I don't e...

The Ups and The Downs Since my nightmare the night before last - my emotion of excitement and happiness has been replaced with a sense of I don't know what you call this. What's it called when you just feel emotionless? Not even. I was upset yesterday to the point where I barely ate in the day. A yogurt? A English muffin? - my dinner - toast. Yeah- my nightmare effected me that much. But the truth it shouldn't cause nightmares for me are a bit of non reality. I have to prepare for myself for the now and physical - cause all we ever have is the now. It's the only thing we can really control. Today is my mom's birthday! Hmmm what should I get her? Going to dinner tomorrow night. My friend had forwarded this event to me about free dj'ing session. And it's tomorrow night too. For one, I rarely like to do things on my own in Vancouver. Weird right? - maybe cause it is a session. Or just my anti-social talking. Shyness doesn't escape you very much - or at ...

Ugh ... Happy Valentines Day I'm a bit sick to my stomach at the moment. Waking up from a panic dream and one with dirty crazy beggars , a pregnant African American woman, a priest and a bunch of other people I don't know. Running and dodging people. I would call this dream a bit of a nightmare. Cause I felt terror and I don't know why I would dream this at all like the other nightmare I had that I shared with my sister that disgusted her too. That dream was just- disgusting. It stains my soul. Happy Valentines Day. One of the days that I used to not celebrating it. It's something I think is lovely - as in someone taking a chance to declare their love on a day like so many others - but bravery with the heart should stand on another day because that day is and should be just as good as today. I didn't do much this weekend. Saw baby Ethan on Friday like every Friday. Hung out with my sister some quality time. ( Been trying to do this since finding out it's the way...

Decisions I'm still working on my website and it's coming along more slowly that anticipated. Which isn't delightful. I wonder what is the last section of the 6 on my featured home page that will be - featured. I have 5. This sucks. It's taking far too long to do this and it bothers me. I uploaded or started to upload Seattle trip images yesterday. My face seemed to have a reaction to something yesterday and I had a sudden outbreak of bumps on my cheek on one side of my face. Damn my heartbreaks as I get snow reports on my phone. And how warm the city is becoming as our winters get so much shorter. I should figure out a way to get up on the weekend. Even if it's on my own. Heading to work and my mind kind of blank. What is there to finish? - a website design, another design - a whiteboard full of stuff. It's been a month + of me and another designer. I wonder how much more longer this is going to go. My body is still getting used to getting up at 5am. I was thin...

Redesigning the Redesign I spent most of this weekend working on my website. As I watched the last of the lord of the rings marathon, staring my How I Met Your Mother marathon. Since the hacking of my website, I can only say that putting my new site in the works has been a troubling one, adding new elements and featuring some others. I think Bruno Mars like Jason Mraz are some of the best people to start off the day musically that is. I really don't know how they are as people - but it would probably be an adventure. Back to my site- I'm turning it 180- from a blank canvas look to something - more- well I don't know how to describe it now. Its different and probably not what a lot of people would think it would be the direction I take my website to but it's different. Wow - I usually get big people that sit next to me on the train in the box front where I'm sitting but someone took the place of this big lady that was sitting next to me earlier and he's not takin...

Back in town My trip to Seattle was rewarding in the end, however there was a bit of a bump at the end of the first day. But you fight through it, talk it out, and find a common ground. What did I do on the first day? Well I left Vancouver around 10:30ish, and headed down. Stopping at the Seattle outlet on the way, I came out of that place with just a sports tank for roller hockey. Going on, and driving into Seattle, my hotel sat at the entrance from the freeway into downtown. Sheraton Hotel was beautiful- being on the 21st floor, the view was towards the city, with a view of the Roosevelt. After resting for a bit, we headed out for dinner, walking down to the waterside to a restaurant called The Crab Pot. I Tried to get a goof photo of me in front of our restaurant before meeting up with friends. The boys ordered two buckets of seafood as I called three appetizers for the four of us. Crab cakes, coconut shrimp and calamari. I enjoyed the crab cakes as Ry enjoyed the coconut shrimp. A...

I haven't been blogging because I've been away. On vacation I would say, but really it's just relaxation time for me. There isn't much to say but some self revelations as I visit places here and there, visit locations that stir up memories, thoughts and more importantly dreams. You don't face your true self if you ignore the little things that bother you, that you leave you feeling unfinished. If you lack closing one door, another will not open up to you. I started reading "Think and Grow Rich" on my way here to Seattle. The first few stories have already have me thinking about some things. But the images I take here, the clothes I buy, the places I stay. Give me a little something to define myself. Not in things, just - thoughts. It's hard to say, how can a jacket define me? - or that poster you spot in some store and wonder if you can get that too. You don't define yourself in the things you buy, or see, but the emotions they trigger and the thou...