Behind SyloArts

Me and Chris get to the casino, finding parking was a bit annoying. We walk through the casino only to walk back outside to re-enter the different part of the building. When me and Chris go to our seats he couldn't believe how close were were. I had told him front row! but when the music started and all these girls ran up and blocked my view.. I was like... I'm going up too! BEST FIRST CONCERT EVER! It's the best thing I could ask for in a first concert. front row where I can touch them. I didn't get a rose. But I nearly cried because the emotions were all there. It's great that I got to shake all three of their hands. I ♥ Boyz II Men

Someone commented and asked if the tables were turned. What would I do? To be honest you have to realize something about me. I am very much a giver. If my X bf fell for a best girlfriend of mine ( yes at first it would hurt and be weird ) My answer is. WHO AM I TO STAND IN BETWEEN THAT? I'm a Libra. I weight the circumstances. If this will only feel awkward for me, but they come to love each other so much that there maybe a possibility that they are soul mates. Or come to get married, or have something greater than I can ever come to find. WHO AM I? To say they cannot have that? just cause it would be weird for me to see them together. I'm giving enough to always want the person I love to find great love even if it is not with me. I would only disapprove for one reason. If I know if one of the two is disloyal. I will warn the other before they enter a relationship together but I would wish them all the best. I truly would. I'm not trying to break a friendship. I would...

Yesterday I did not do very much. I posted two videos up. One on my personal account and one on my main one. The Final One for the 2009 year. I spent the night chatting to new friends. Both Canadians. Both with family backgrounds with bad stories. They are far more stronger than me though. That is for sure. I am a badass Yes I am. But here are some of my wishes for everyone for the new year.

I don't use my full name a lot of the time when I introduce myself to people because the way I like to have it be called in English sounds like something else in Cantonese. Dead Person. I decided to post this video up because my friend just asked about my name yesterday. Many also wonder why I just don't have an English name. I never applied one to myself because I don't really know what English name would suit me. But I hope this Youtube Video explains somethings about me and my name and some little stories of me and names. :)

I'm not talking about myself today. My GB *Chris* seems to lack the ability to fully let go. I understand this, that it's hard but I just don't understand how anyone can continuously dwell and focus a part of their energy towards someone that has hurt them so much. He seems to ask why, why he doesn't have the kind of happiness that the person he's always had interests in seems to have found in someone else that isn't him. He has continuously had interests in these girls who have all ended up breaking his heart. I asked and wondered if he was loving too blindly. That he likes that person so much that he's not seeing all the other signs of their disinterest. I've always had the patience to do this and realized loving blindly only makes you weaker that you are allowing yourself to be hurt. He has to learn to stop looking back and checking in on someone that seems to break your heart every time you see their happiness with someone else which in turn makes yo...

I've been touched today in two ways. ( I mean emotions ) One of my friends earlier in the day text messages me wondering where I've been because I hadn't logged online for a couple of days. This really touched me to know he cared. And that I'm online way too much. LOL. Chris *god bro* asks if I confessed to my crush yet. I said I hadn't. He sends me this song. It basically says in Chinese. The title: Don't be afraid. The Lyrics talk about Don't be afraid love isn't meant to be scary. kind of thing... I love this artist, I had some of his English songs on imeem before myspace bought them out and messed up that account. He has the classical voice which is so rare.

Since starting to do youtube videos, I started to get personal messages / people visiting my blog to chat with me who turned out to recognize me from some where. They couldn't put their hands on it until they mentioned Asian Avenue and I told them what my nickname was. BB_Mouse. I used to be in the 604chat a lot chatting up and meeting new people. Majority was promoting. But I did meet a lot of great people and friends from there that I chat and still friends with till this day. So I decided to ask on youtube if other people remember Asianavenue.com before it turned to asianave.com. If more 604 people recognize me, great because I did lose touch with a lot of great friends who I met on there. I hope to maybe get back in touch to see how they are now doing.