Behind SyloArts

ahhh I'm missing him. I find it sweet how he tries his best to text me before he goes to sleep. ♥ I'm going to try my best to try to get my sexy body for beach wear! I wanna go swimming in the ocean this summer or at least lounge in the sun! I haven't blogged cause there isn't much to blog. I've been experiencing light headaches that comes and goes on Monday but today I felt fine. I had to wake up early to work before going to work. But that's life. I admitted to Ry that our first kiss gave me chills. It was a little peck and still it gave me chills. His kisses make me weak in the knees. It's crazy! I didn't even know a guy could do that to me any more to be honest! Ugh I have a bruise on my arm on my left arm. It's true colors came out.. today. I downloaded apps for my iphone but then realized I have no way to upload them to my phone because the applications tab is missing. My phone version is too old. I think I'm going to be eagerly await...

I had a scary experience in hockey today. I don't even know what happened to be honest. They said I ran into someone, but to me all I remember was like someone skated by me and I took kind of like an elbow/shoulder to the head. I went down. Right when I fell I wanted to get right back up but couldn't. My head felt really heavy. I turned onto my stomach and tried to get up there but felt winded at the same time and tears filled my eyes and I found myself trying to gather myself as I was gasping for air and me probably in a turtle position trying to get up. Kinda felt embarrassing and scary at the same time. My teammates helped me up as they took off my helmet and eventually I skated to the bench as I was left with a headache and now kinda of a sore neck. I felt like my brain was rattled a bit. My god brother says if I feel a headache tomorrow morning that won't go away then it maybe something to get checked. This incident brings me back to the bare bones of don't forget ...

LOL I'm talking about the lottery again. It's at 50 Millions again. I just came across this song on Jin's youtube. I remember having this conversation with my sister that if I ever was a millionaire I would try to build this program in Vancouver that picks a selective few people that really really show they want to change their lives. I had a weird idea of where you have a building which is a core location of where it's these people who signed a contract. They sign over their lives to however long it is it takes to get them back on their feet. May it be drug addicted people, or just a single mom that fell through the cracks and made the wrong choices and she has no where else to go. Create a reality tv show where there are camera people follow and recording their daily actions. The hub is where they will live kinda like that other show on TV- not intervention the one where they are at the rehab. They will live there for free as they get help as in counseling, skill bu...

My heart today feels like it's about to POP. I find it kinda weird how I miss Ry's voice. It's been a week now he's gone to Europe and it's 2 more weeks till he returns. We text daily but ... I'd like to hear how his trip is going. Not read it in a text message. I'm going to be honest to say that my heart hurt a little when I felt like I knew I wasn't going to be hearing his voice. I know he's traveling around half way around the world. Partying. Yeah I do wish I went but things have been getting crazy in the office. Tomorrow is going to be another long day but I hope it will be a beautiful one. I haven't slept much in the past few days. Three hours per night is not enough for anyone to function on. I lost sleep to working. On art, on graphic design. Tonight I should get my sleep time in. I finished the book I was reading - the greatness guide. Fantastic. Reassures my heart. It adds and stabilizes my foundation of greatness. I have to believe tha...

Yeah I spent a lot of money today. But well worth it. I must say. Things I needed for myself and no more holding back. If today be the last day I live and I go to sleep and that's when I die. Then I had a good day. After work I headed to Metro to shop. I needed to get certain things off my chest. I went into Mac for the first time ever. The make up store. I'm going to be honest to say that every time I'm in front of make up displays I'm really like a deer caught in headlights. I don't know what's going on. There's way too much to choose from. I asked one of the workers there that I needed help in choosing a cover up. I had two big break outs from god knows what but they need coverage! Since I can't seem to pic colors on my own because the never seem to match my skin tone, so I left it to a professional. She was nice and helpful and found one that matches my skin tone. I buy 20$ cover-up and leave. Thanks Lauren! I head on over to Chapters. My friend sug...

I need to get this off my heart and chest. It was strange for me to see FL in Calgary. Let alone what he asked of me. But he didn't know. He was the closest thing I ever had to perfection in a man. Really. Funny, Tough, Cute, what not and what not. To me I constantly believe in seeing the best out of people. So in other words it is very much easy for me to fall in love with someone. Well not In love - in love. like. Loving them a lot for what they do have. NOT the Love that is- I'm meant to be with you forever and ever and ever amen. I didn't see a lot of flaws in him I guess. He was everything I could ever ask for and then some but ... In the end, when I felt his doubt. I doubted - I stepped back as I felt him step back. I watched more of his actions and his words. We all know what happens when that happens. It fails before it even starts. We would have made beautiful babies. LOL. I would make beautiful babies with B- Too. man he has to stop asking me to make out. Do I rea...

I did a sketch of this a couple vids back. Decided to buy some canvases when I came back from Calgary because there are some art show coming up and this would be one to enter. I have to admit this was the first time I did the Koi using the Asian style technique that one would use with watercolor with acrylic on canvas. I hope to do a lot more :) This painting too a while to do 3-4 hours long. The files are so big that while video editing it ate up all my memory. Freak! But it's that time again to clean out the old videos and filming footage to make way for the new! I've been thinking should I start a new blog? One this time mainly and purely focusing on Asian Artwork. Jotting down all that I can remember, techniques and notes and sketches I have into one single Asian Art blog. Focusing and remembering everything that I was taught. That's like 15 years+ of Asian art education. That's a lot! I'll be thinking about it. That will help me re-focus to remember why ...

Yesterday was a long yet wonderful day. I painted until the hours of the early morning or 4-5 am and after I hit the hay and got a couple hours of sleep I woke up and edited to painting footage for a new youtube video. I went and got ready to go for roller hockey. I was worried about playing because I had hurt myself a bit at the end of my run on Friday. I made my way down to Metro town and somehow made my way through the crowds of the mall weaving in and out trying not to hit anyone with my gigantic hockey bag and stick. My team mate was sweet enough pick me up and I tagged along with her to 8 rinks to check up on her ice hockey team. I am so sore right now. *sigh*. We went to the rink at Killarney and it was beautiful how it was redone. However the rink was really hot. I felt like I could cut the air. I didn't score but that's okay, and we lost by one to one of the best teams in the league in our division. I tagged along with my friend and one of her buds Ed to Dinner at a K...

Okay I've been acting and believing and feeling like a million bucks...and then some. I've been feeling this for a couple of weeks now. Here is my list of what I would do if I were a multi-millionare. ( This list depends on how much I would have as a multi-millionaire. Put on an artshow where the paintings sold go to charity. Donate to Charity - Help get Vancouver homeless off the streets Fund Cancer Research Donate to Hospitals Donate To / Buy / Build A Community Centre / Hockey Arena Give Money To My Family. Parents. Siblings Help pay off any debts the family has. Visit family all around the world Visit Brunei Rebuild Grandpa's House Travel Europe Pay for my sister's wedding Put money away for baby Ethan Pay off my bills Laser eye surgery? Dental surgery More Driving Lessons Get a White Mini Cooper Buy a studio apartment / loft Buy a condo for Alex - Rent to own Build Dream House Call up a handful of friends, to go vacation all expenses covered....

Driving lesson 2 was success. What did I learn. backing into a stall, driving in good following distance. Right and left turns at street lights. What else... I don't remember. I was so determined to back into a stall perfectly. I kept rolling onto the line. I was working out. Cleaned some jewelery. And thinking. Clicking. You know when people use that term. What does it really mean? When you "Click" with someone. You gel and get along greatly. What happens if you get along just fine with a lot of people. What is that differentiating factor that makes one guy better than the other? I think all girls reasons and definition of what makes them believe "click" is all different. But I still think what are the qualifications that makes a girl say... "We just click." I have yet to change my status on facebook. I'm going to be honest to say I kind of find it ridiculous to keep changing it. There isn't a status for people who are just dating. It...

Ok, I'm going to be honest. It's getting harder and harder to make up titles for my blog entries. It's my second day back at work and everything is falling back into place nicely. Except when I came back from my trip I had forgotten a little someone. I had forgotten to love him so much that he died yesterday. Bob. Bob died from neglect and starvation. I'm a bit sad because well he was all white, which means he sat in the dark, hungry and all alone for the longest time before he didn't have it in him any more. :( . Bob II ... may you BOB your way to heaven and meet Bob I. I'm SO SORRY! *tear* I had forgotten to tell someone to feed you when I was gone. Or I should have brought you with me in a bottle... in a plastic bottle. NO that would have been cruel. Ry says that when he gets back from his trip we'll go pick out another Bob. Man... Calgary trip was crazy unreal. Full of hopes and dreams coming true. My heart melting unexpectedly. Unusual moments with p...

The day of the trip, I went out and bought a sd card from Best Buy, Thank God I did cause well the 16 Gig I did have would corrupt it's own files. So no more using that sd card. I thought I would buy some clothes but didn't end up buying any. I get a call from Ry as I'm at the mall to let me know where we should meet up and head out to Calgary. I head home after the mall and get there, get my gear and after a little bit of food, I head out once more this time making it to Sapperton station and meeting up with Ry and his best friend. With a truck and trailer hitch with her ( the honda prelude ) all strapped in ready to head out. Our road trip didn't officially start till later in the day. I had met up with the boys around 3:00pm, there was a detour to be made to Maple Ridge to pick up some gold foil. We left and when we left and as we headed past Langley we had another detour to make to pick up some signage. By the time we actually got out and made some lead way it was...

There's something amazing about finishing The Secret - half way through the book and my heart since has felt like it's been cut open. When I bought the four books. The Abs Diet For Women, The Monk Who Sold His Ferrari, Love as a Way of Life, and The Secret. I choose to read them in the order I've listed for some strange reason. This is how my brain broke it down. One, The abs diet takes time to accomplish, hence first book to read first. It will change my diet but also make me become aware of my what I should be and should not be eating. My health has not been in the bestest of shapes but now it's awesome. I feel very much 100% the old me. With a more awesome looking body day by day... Thank you Abs Diet. The Monk Who Sold His Ferrari: I didn't know what to expect from this book, but a part of me believed this book would sooth my soul. It simply reaffirmed what I believed to be my way of living was right all along and that me straying from that was what made...

I am receiving now, I am receiving all the good in my life, now. I am receiving and... I am so happy and grateful now for the relationships I have in my life. I am so happy and grateful now for those who have come into my life and made it so wonderfully beautiful. I am so happy and grateful now for the skills and talents and knowledge that were taught to me through great teachers. I am so happy and grateful now to have a wonderful sense of humor and a limitless sense of imagination. I am so happy and grateful now for the past because it's helped to construct the person and being I am to face the future and what's ahead of me. I am so happy and grateful now for the money I make and have and my artful career. I am so happy and grateful now for my ever growing youtube subscribers and fan base. I am so happy and grateful now for the art shows I've participated in and for my art shows to come. I am so happy and grateful now for all the smiles that are bestowed upon me ...

I'm reading The Secret. It says to write down all the things you're thankful for. Start thanking for things that you want to happen to you, in your mind believing that they have already happened. Live like you have already received it. This way of thinking if funny to me because this was one of the things that not too long ago hit me and made a lot of things turn around in my life. But the book has opened up my mind to the possibilities that there can be more. I'm capable of more. I became thankful for the past, but I hadn't been thankful for the future. Some visions that I see so clearly that I know they are bound to come true. But I didn't thank the Universe for them yet. Maybe I should. Because then when it happens I know it was meant to be because I had attracted those thoughts. For example. I had a dream of my nephew before he was born. Was it a law of attraction that I foresaw him before he was born, that I new by instinct that he was a boy and would look...

This morning my father finds out that the Whey Powder that sits in the kitchen was mine. I bought it as one of the things of ingredients for my shakes. My dad like always, tells me not to buy it anymore. That I shouldn't be drinking it that depending how it was made it can be bad for me. He tells me that I shouldn't be making and drinking the shakes that often, then he tells me to pour some of my shake for him and that whenever I make it I should pour him some next time. I say tell cause that's what exactly is going on. I try my best to keep my cool and not to let him get to me but I say before I leave the kitchen, "Dad, you have to stop TELLING what to do." Though maybe I should get used to the fact that it's always been like this. But on some days I just wish that it was more of a nicer way of communicating. Like him asking nicely if he could try some of what it is I'm eating or drinking or that it would like it if I made a little extra for him next time...

BMI Measurement: 21.73 Weight: 115(lb) x 703 = 80845 Height: 61(inches)2 = 3721 80845 / 3721 = 21.73 Waist to Hip Ratio: 0.914 waist: 30" Hip: 34.5" 32 / 35 = 0.87 Target: > 0.80 MEASUREMENT START Week 1 Week 2 Week 3 Weight 115 lb 114 lb 114 lb 115 lb BMI 21.73 21.53 21.53 21.73 Hip To Waist Ratio 0.914 0.90 0.90 0.87 Body fat percentage 26.66% 26.42% 26.42% 26.66%

LOL ... just a couple blogs back I said unsatisfied as a title... but this time I'm talking about my wardrobe which I now I feel like my wardrobe is practically GOOD, actually I'm going to get rid of some outfits I realized don't look very good on me. at all. or at least the skinnier now me. I walked in to spring shoes today at lunch looking for white heels to my surprise they had a few! and I was glad to find a pair that was simple and nice and pointy and not too high and not too flat ( flats I learned are bad for me! I'm very used to heels )I returned after work to try one one and purchased them. I've had two instances yesterday of getting guys saying hello to me as I was on my jog. One today when I was making my way to spring shoes. One thing is I had NO IDEA what any of them were saying to me so I end up smiling and waving them off and go on my way. I didn't know what any of them were saying because I had my ear buds in and I was listening to music. Today ...

See... I love what I do downtown but sometimes it gets so ... corporate. Let me do the fun stuff. Let me design something that will be seen. Talked about. Heard. If I can't do that with graphic design, let it be with fine arts. If it's not fine arts... I don't know what else is there. Hmmmm... someone just contacted me today about modeling. The truth is, I have thought about becoming an import model once. When I was 16! >_< ten years ago! I reply to them... the answer is yes. Just give me a month to condition my body to where I'd like it to be. Then the shoot would mean so much more. It's a bit apprehensive thing to do but the truth is, I have to learn to be less afraid of myself and self image. That's why this is more for me than anything else. That years of people telling me I'm fatty... can leave my heart and be filled with the thoughts and true refinement in the fact that I am beautiful. Heart, mind, body, soul. To build a stronger sense of ...