Behind SyloArts

My plan this Halloween was to party as a sexy maid. But you know plans change. I can't really do anything with a 6 and a half months pregnant sister and a cousin who's never done anything Halloween. I'm pretty sure if I did go out and party hardy as a sexy maid, a little someone would be worried sick of what I'm wearing, what I'm doing, who I'm with and where I'm doing all this with my sexy self. So till I can be my sexy self when I'm with that little special someone, I'll chill back this year. Like I have every other Halloween year. On Halloween's EVE. I was pretty busy, just didn't blog about it. LOL. I guess I was living in the moment. I filmed the teaser for my crow stunt. Which means I put on all the gear for it and later that evening I had a pumpkin carving contest at my sisters house with the sister in law and brother in law to be. Peter wins with his Jack Skellington, Lan had her Bowser, Akina had her Pooh, Cousin LX had some kind of ...

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We're half way into Fall and I think back to the Summer. How life can change in an instant. A week, month, year can change your life. One second can change your life. This summer my love life went 360. Upside down, inside out. But I recovered quickly cause it wasn't my first failed relationship. Not the first time I was dumped, not the first time I fell in and out of love. It was however a relationship that made me feel that I would never want anyone else. NEVER say NEVER. It didn't last and now I want better. *better in my own standards of what I'm looking for* . I think now better has found me! My Status changed cause I'm not looking anymore... Cause I think I've found someone I want to be with, I'm just not with them yet. This Summer and Fall was truly seasons of change for me. I learned to take chances. To be receptive to what the world is trying to show me. I'm following what my heart tells me more. It's a great moment in my life. I took the ste...

I spent some time yesterday - today watching on youtube Chinese Painting Videos. I just feel that I've wasted some time, watching my life away. Some are holding the brush wrong, destroying their brush, doing wrong strokes. Their coloration is off, water control is lacking and worst of all. People think their work is awesome. Yes I see that some styles are not the same as mine, but some basic rules in Chinese arts apply to all styles. I stop participating in art shows not only due to lack of time and focus, but the truth is the industry was being saturated by all these pieces of artwork that just don't stand up to par on my standards. They lack the heart. The one thing that I come to know is that when someone sees my art. I want it to actually stir some kind of emotion, it's not just another pretty picture. They all have some kind of meaning behind them. They aren't produced cause they're produced to sell and make money. Everyone I create has a meaning and emotion em...

I came across this in my.. day off and surf random things on youtube day. I have to blog this, it's too great not to share. This is one must go and see in Tokyo if I ever get the chance to go there.

This is to announce my artful return to the Chinese fine arts scene in Vancouver. Some Vancouverites may not know me personally who I am by face, but may have perhaps seem some of my artwork. To view artwork you can visit my website: http://www.syloarts.com . I will be participating in an upcoming art show and would love for fellow Vancouverites to go check it out when it happens. CCC Center in Chinatown. Nov. 7 - Dec. 6th. If you're looking to purchase a bottle and you're a fellow Vancouverite: visit www.fillyourown.ca to find the closest retailer. Those who aren't local and would be interested in purchasing a bottle I will be looking into getting more soon. So I will soon have some in my possession to sell off. In this video I'm calling out music makers to help me make some beats for my videos. I really am tired of not having any music in my videos and would like to have original beats that I can place into as I edit for intros and background music. I will nam...

*SIGH*... A BIG SIGH. I get off of work and skytrain it home. I'm waiting to board my bus, and start lining up. I realize as I'm standing there behind a bunch of people that "seem" like they are in line. Weren't. I realize this when the bus gives off that sound ... the hissing one where it inflates it's suspension to lift it up to take off. I say a loud. "FUCKERS" and then quickly start turning around and booking it for the next bus stop. Knowing I have a little *couple seconds / mins * the bus takes to go around the station block to turn to the next stop. Lets just say, thank god I'm fit that I was able to book it for the next stop and not pass out when I boarded the bus. *stupid moment of the day for you there. *errrrrr* I recorded / filmed myself singing a song I wrote earlier this week. I'm debating if I should youtube it for the world to hear and see. But I'm a bit shy at the moment and reluctant to. Yes, even the not so shy to do...

There are little things in a day that make you smile, laugh, frustrated. Emotions that make you... feel. Something. Yesterday's foolish dumb dumb of the day was...I found out as I was crossing the building next to the one I work in as I make my way to work... That I had my zipper down. It has been down the whole time I've been traveling to work. Thank God I always wear clothes that go down to cover my hips and the frontal area. LOL. Ahhh.. so dumb dumb. Today's WTF of the day. I go to McDonalds for lunch. You know the monopoly thing. LOL well only played it like twice. mmmm I get three railroads today. Had one in my possession. Only to have one of my three railroads go missing. It better be on my desk at work. SHIAT! four I know I got all four. I KNOW IT! Anyways, yes. Been working all day downtown the last couple of days. I want to be able to come home and do filming but the days seem to be getting darker really fast. So I'm losing day light. My filming for this w...

Yesterday was a good day. I lazied around in the morning and went to go drop off my painting for an upcoming art show that's going to be at the CCC center between the Nov 7 to Dec 6. The 15th Annual Art Exhibition & Juried Awards 2009. For the Chinese Canadian Artists Federation in Vancouver. Yes I've been a member since, 2003? I've been out of the scene for 2.5 years, due to school and building my Graphic Design part of my life. Now, I'm going to try more than ever to merge these two. I ask myself what have I been doing this last 2.5 years. Not all that much, which is sad. But then I've done a few stuff. I've helped brand some local businesses, build some websites for companies. Got my artwork on some stainless steel water bottles. What else have I done that was career based? One thing I haven't been doing is networking. But now I am willing to open up, show the world what I really have to offer. Going back into fine arts more ready is what I was waitin...

He's calls me from Toronto, at the Boyz II Men Concert. He's Singing along with them and my heart is just melting. >_

Okay. Well I called Rogers for 2 reasons. 1) is to find out why the 3gs I ordered 3-4 months ago... NEVER CAME! 2) I'm going to Toronto and taking my cell with me. Do I have to pay extra cause I'm out of the city making calls? I never got to get the answer to my second question. And I didn't even order the 3gs after talking to them. Apparently they never put in my order which I placed in the same time I changed my plan. Then when I said I want to place an order now, they tell me I have to sign up for +25$/ month for data plan in order to get the 199$ deal for the phone. I can't extend my plan another 3 years and get the phone. I have to sign up. I don't even NEED that data plan cause I'm always around Wi-Fi... does that make any sense to you that they force you to get a plan that you DON'T NEED ?! Now I don't even know if I want to order this phone. I already pay about 60$ / month for my plan. I can't afford to fucking add on another un-needed 2...

Why is it that I'm now constantly thinking of how I can make money as I expand and grow left, right, front, back and center all while loving what I'm doing as I'm doing it. Cause I'm ♥ ing it guys.... I really am. I feel like I should have been doing what I am now so long ago. I don't even know what was holding me back. I guess a series unfortunate events led to something very fortunate and started to shed light on opportunities and chances I needed to take. There will always be consequences to things we choose to do, but when the outcome of success out weights the chances of failure. I rather take that chance to fail and strive the goals that were born from my dreams. Work hard. Strive for excellence in everything you do. Everyone will eventually see the fruits of your labor. I am currently now hungry ... hungry for more . work, ideas, dreams, goals, art, design... LIFE.

I remember now how it all started. It was nearing the end of the night when the party was winding down, he walks up and asks kindly with the sound in his voice that it's been a long night and that look that he just took the chance to ask for a hug. He had already introduced himself to me before the party begun and we were all setting up. He left me that night wondering what that was all about. But brushed it off cause I had met SO many people that night at that party. But since that night I've always remembered him and at every party, if we saw each other he'd smile at me as he was DJing and I'd smile back with a wave. I realize now, during that time, he was never far away. Now Frankie Baby is sending me random songs, some are my favorite jams from back in the day. Here are just two of a dozen he's linked me. I heart the fact he's a music guy. I just love it!

I found it. I was curious this morning to find out more of this 1/16th that is a part of me. My dad's background is Chinese, FULL Chinese. My mom's side however. My Great Nana ( My Nana's mom, *Nana is the Grandma Term I use for my mom's side ) She was Kadazan ( A native to Sabah, Malaysia / Borneo ) . My mom is 1/4th making us her children. Me, my sister and brother 1/16th. I really don't know what this one 1/16th really make a difference, but I read up on it so it's my.. what I learned today. Apparently they were farmers of rice and made rice wine. Is this why my mom knows how to make rice wine?!

Sometimes It Hurts. This Photographer is on the right track. This is the real truth. http://www.chrisjordan.com/ I love it, cause ... it's real. The world touches us emotionally, we change it physically. We are given the great power of choice to change the world. Since I'm on the subject of photography I forgot to blog about this awesome Promo that my friend posted on Facebook. NIKON, you kick ass! I love you.

LIFE GOAL _ Vacation Toronto Get Camcorder ( So I Can Shoot Outside ) Design Jonny's Shirt ( MSS ) Design More . Upload More . Earn More Start Painting Again =) Do Crow Stunt Get a new puppy Scooter. Finish the book I started eight - ten years ago. ( Chapters thus far, 25 ) lose 20 pounds . Get my drivers learners again... . Go to the beach and just chill. . Take more photos for my stock images . Purge Most of X-bf stuff . Clean out my closet and sell / donate the items.

I love this song. It takes me back when there were no worries. 2000-2001. Actually I think it takes me back even further before that. 35 Days Till Toronto. Today is Relaxing Day for me. Since my creative juices are all left me for a while. It's Cleaning Day too at home. So Mopping, Cooking, Shopping? Should I head out and get my camcorder today? My October Self Present of the Month.

I'm going to post two things one here... a couple days earlier this made me smile the the morning... too bad that morning wasn't this morning. This morning I woke up, got ready and dressed for work. Went to go make breakfast. Being me I decided to make pancakes not just for myself but everyone else that was still sleeping. My mom *her weird self, who flew back on the 20th. She (like always) when I'm in the kitchen will come and disrupt and get in the way. She didn't do anything and just left when I told her to go back to sleep. I make pancakes from scratch and as they cook, I eat, I clean up all the dishes that I used during cooking and making and eating. And all the dishes left during the night from various people in the house. I finish cooking the last of the pancakes. Put them on a dish and leave them on the dining room table for everyone to eat when they wake up. I wash the pan and everything else used to cook the pancakes. Go to wash my face and brush my teeth and ...

I don't want to say it yet. So I won't. I'll just describe it as ... So in LIKE. I'll smile at the thought of him. At what he said, what he wrote, what he wishes. I'm all smiles. ... I am all smiles. I feel so Loved right now. I want to feel this all the time, up and down... I feel this and I know I will be alright. I think it's time to Make my 86 Things to do in life 100. (+) Ride an Elephant (+) See A Great Wonder of The world (+) See A Great Wonder of Canada (+) Experience A Romantic Dinner, All Dressed Up (+) Try Clubbing, Just Once (+) Be Serenaded, I Wonder How This Feels... (+) Get Engaged (+) Dance in Random Place, with someone, Randomly (+) Hit 1,000 Subs On Youtube (+) Sit & Enjoy the fine tastes of Wine. (+) Visit An Historic Spiritual Place (+) Camping, So I Can Watch The Sun Set/Rise Over The Lake As I Sit Next To A Fire. (+) Receive A Message On A Napkin. (+) Have Great Photos Taken Of Me ( in someone elses POV of me ), So I Se...

Hello, here is my infamous chocolate chip cookies. Recipe: I don't know how many servings it makes cause I roll my cookies pretty small. Butter _ 1 Cup Brown Sugar _ 1.5 Cups Eggs _ 2 to 3 Flour _ 3 Cups Baking Powder _ 1 Teaspoon Baking Soda _ 1 Teaspoon Chocolate Bar _ 1 Stir in Butter and Brown Sugar Together. Beat in the Eggs. Combine the Dry ingredients and mix well. Chop up the Chocolate to bits and then fold into dough. With an Ice Cream Scooper roll the dough into the sizes you want. Place them dispersed from one another to they don't touch when baked on Parchment Paper On Cookie Sheet. Bake at 375 F. For 8 Mins. If you are going to double the batch. I suggest you pick up one of those large PC chocolate bars at Superstore *if you are in Canada. They are the right amount to make 2 batches of these cookies. If you find its too crispy for your liking.. lessen your butter amount. I find that salted and unsalted butter does make a difference. But it's...

Hello... I didn't blog yesterday cause I was busy! I feel so tired these days. Downtown work is a hassle to get to in the mornings. I wonder when I'm on the train if I'm even recognizable to people who may have seen me on Youtube. LOL . And then I go on and hide my face with my hood up. I spent the morning in pain . I went to McDonalds to grab lunch yesterday, yeah I have been breaking diet a lot lately. But I got the fishy burger and fries and.. it's monopoly time and I had to redeem the thing I got from last time I just went in to get large fries. The lady there is super sweet. I think she thought I was philippino cause think she kept talking to me in it. @_@ . It stayed busy at work till the rest of the day. I hit up Safeway before heading home and got ingredients to make some more cookies. I ended up filming it and the video will be released hopefully later today. Last night before dinner, my brother gets on my case *again* The men of my family like to pick on me fo...

I don't think I need to anymore...when I heard this. I just think of ... you. *you know who you are. I spent most of the day today organizing, taking photos of everything that I think I can sell off on ebay or give away. De-cluttering my life, you can say. Of a lot of little things I just never needed in my life to live it. I spent most of the day listening to Gabe *artist who sings in the video above* as I cleaned up. I filed away more bills and sorted out my notebooks. Planning my trip to Toronto. Chatted it up. And after 9pm, me and the cousin chilled on my bed as we watched Drag me to Hell. I was squeaking away here and there watching it. I hate creepy shadow horror things. I need someone to snuggle cuddle as I watch these scary movies. >_

Yeah, last winter season I learned to finally carve in snowboarding.. yes only been up two seasons. I want to go again up there, but who I'm gonna go with?? I need to get over the fear of large hills and go fast! anyways this is for F.L baby. who is just learning. I watched these and kept repeating to myself the basic rules.

Yup.. Every Tenth Episode I'm going to do Comment Comment Time for All the Redunkulous Comments I get. Some good Some Bad, but it doesn't really matter cause I really laugh off a lot of them. I really don't mind sexual comments, I'm pretty open minded that way. So Yeah, everyone's going to be game. There are lots of shout outs. Yeah I'm all tired looking too in the video cause it was majority filmed at 2am in the morning. I spent so much time trying to figure out how to place the comments on top of my video as it was going. Editing... how does everyone do it? Maybe Cause I'm such a noobie. And my Singing... wow... I'm nervous what people are going to say about my singing... BAD... I know... BAD. YAY .. A CAUSE OF CELEBRATION.. 100+ SUBSCRIBERS.. yeah I am happy with 100 =) My fan base is growing and I love them all for it. I can't wait to hear the beat that Sundeep is going to be making for me as my theme song... I know whatever it is, its going to...

I wake up and do my email checking routine. I always look forward to this now...because I always get a morning message from Frankie =) This is how I looked this morning before I went out, trust me I was all smiles. But you know it isn't gonna go right when you leave the house on time, still run along the way to catch the bus to only have it.. never show up ( unless it was early.. yeah Public Transit likes to come when it likes ) But no worries. If I miss it going one way, I take the other going the opposite direction. They both lead me to where I need to go anyways. I transfer buses, as I wait.. I close my umbrella and swing it to get all the water on it, off. ( I'm pretty sure I'm not the only person that does this ) However I swung too hard and it just flew off! I mean I was left holding just the handle and that stem that .. oh whatever. I trash it cause the thing was falling apart anyways. Thank God I had left my other umbrella at work the other day *yes I am a smart coo...

Yeah I spent most of the day filming and editing and trying to figure how to use imovie. So I can make my video awesomeness! I will most likely have it up by tomorrow night. Friday morning at the earliest. Since I will be working DT tomorrow. I went to another DM meeting, building a dream and goal. Came home and chatted a bit with baby-boy Christian about me wanting to hip-hop dance. I'm reminded of the korean dance crew that I fell in love a couple years ago. I love to dance just never got that into it or pursued it professionally. I dance to work out, that's about it. How cool is it to find a hip-hop dance girl that has the same name. I LOVE YOU PREPIX! Watching Hitch. Thinking about Frankie and counting down the days. I forgot to do laundry...gtg.

I woke up this morning, check my messages Oh yeah.. there's this white guy that works in my building that always seems to have a weird thing of looking at me. -_- but he never says anything to me. He looks at me like he knows me but I don't.. he sees me like he wants to talk to me but he doesn't. It's that awkwardness. FYI.. I think this guys like in his late 30's?? I dunno. JUST awkward!

Here is my first try at cooking... a WHOLE chicken on my own. Yes. Mom's not in Canada, Dad is out for dinner with his friends or what not. I'm at home with my brother and cousin ( whom are both also adults ) and I'm stuck with cooking a whole chicken by myself?! WTF!   #1.  I can't cook. I was never taught, was always shooed out of the kitchen if I ever got too close.  But when I came of age... what... 18? My parents thought I should have known all the wisdom of the chinese culinary cooking arts would just pump out of my blood.  NO... NO it does not.  I may have the instinct of what can taste good with what but cooking it is a whole other different story.  What did I end up doing.  PLEASE... don't laugh. I defrosted the whole mini chicken in the microwave. Then the frozen chopped mixed veggies, then the slices of ham.  ( My freezer can feed my family for a month - six months if a war were to hit, we are currently trying to clean it out )....

I'm Thankful, Not Just On Thanksgiving Day... But Everyday ♥ For the Life ... Death ... and everything that is in between. The ones who my life line has cross paths with... the people who were always meant to be there... That's YOU.  I love you... THANK YOU for being in my life. Thank you for bringing someone back into my life. God. I owe  you one... LOL... I'll just be GREAT from here on out for you. Loving, Caring. Kind, everything at the best of my ability. WAIT... I do this regardless. My Trippy Dream. I had a dream this morning. My dream was an amalgam weirdness. I do everything in my power to run away and help the a girl that was being searched for her when she was trying to run away. She left a fake letter, with a fake logo of a fake school, she got away. Later on... they find out... I dreamt that same guys were trying to trap me. I escape from their confinement and travel across the island ( there are so many rich colored woods in this dream ). I stand on the ...

Ten years ago I wrote what I believed to be the meaning of life. Yes I kid you not. My train of thought has always been one that was mature. I'm quiet because I watch the world, people, emotions. I never shared my thought, my belief because I thought everyone will experience this and come to their own realizations, their own meaning of life. Who am I to say what it all means. It is different to everyone. This is my 16 year old mind seeing the world for what it was. Who I am, stems from these thoughts and beliefs. Meaning of Life I remember one night when I was lying in bed, with my eyes closed. I wasn't sleeping. Just lying there on my back breathing deeply and slowly. In my mind I was floating in deep space and all that I could hear was the sound of my heart pounding. BOOM boom BOOM boom. All of a sudden, all at once, all these questions filled my head referring to my past, present and future. Why did you do this? Where are you heading? Where are you going to be in 10 year...

If you don't know about this sandwich place in Surrey, you're missing out my friends. It's the BEST! The best meat, the Cheese... the owner! ahhh I heart you Salam Kahil! HAPPY BIRTHDAY MY FRIEND ! Located: 19080 - 96th Ave Surrey, BC. There are two kinds of Libras... when we become social butterflies. we are daring and charming and.. there are the ones that have yet to spread their wings.  I'm spreading mine...now more than before. I'm letting the world see my colors. I hope they are beautiful, cause a butterfly never really sees the color of their own wings. Today I've been listening to music by an artist named: LIGHTS Really loving it right now. The music is very much , re-birth kind of style.  Really Great. http://www.imeem.com/artists/lights/album/T2XPvSk7/the-listening-album/ Mr.193 <3   you're like sunshine. You just seem to brighten up my days now.

I did a number of things today. Finishing of my Quebec clients work. Designing their new Christmas Card for this year. I had a great time designing it, but slacked back as I took my time in between taking a bunch of breaks. Emailing friends and chatting it up with people. Chris* ( god bro ) negativity is overflowing. Maintaining at Zero is one thing he needs to learn. To let go. To realize that the world is more than meets the eye and that you'll be the better person for it when you live to better the lives of everyone, instead of the hurtfulness that may linger in your heart right now. Don't keep it in, don't dwell upon it. Let it go. If you don't, it will poison your soul. You'll hate more than just the people that you do loath right now. You'll slowly start hating yourself. You never want to do that. Love yourself for everything you are. You'll open up more to a lot more things. You're living your life with your eyes half shut and take it as it is. Wh...

I'm filling out the papers for an up coming art show here in Vancouver which I would like to participate. I've gotten the name picked out for my painting but what I've yet to fill out is the price. What price am I willing to let one of my paintings go at. This painting isn't just any painting, it's one of my best ones. It's one of those ones where it was so good I know my art teacher ( who passed ) was guiding me through it. Sean wanted me to put this up. so I guess I will just for the hell of it. "The real die young and the fake die last. Baby who knows how long we will last..." It's been really hard for me lately to let others know of someone who's come back into my life in the last couple weeks. He stepped back into my life when I was maintaining at "Zero" and let go of the fact of searching for anyone. He comes back into my life and pushed me up to this point where I'm smiling all day. I'm Happy! I'm feeling like...

How I lost 20 Pounds. click here to send you to the blog post.  Before and after pictures can be found HERE .  Well in todays video I talk a lot and I hope I don't bore everyone to death. I'm very happy and I hope that rubs off on people.  I woke up so early this morning but I didn't care, I had great sleep even though my lights were on. There are a couple of places I mention in my video where you can get vinyl toys from. Voltage ( on main ): http://voltageland.com/shop/ Headquarters ( on burrard ) El Kartel ( on robson ): http://www.elkartel.com/ There is one more place that I do hit up to get vinyls and that's in Richmond and that is in Aberdeen Centre a place called: beans I'm starting to burn out I guess it's time to eat something. I'll take a nap a little later on.

Lets just wrap up for the day. I did so many things today on my TO DO list for today. I sent off the logo to Sean, Made my filming list, I emailed cousin Jonny the filming list, Vacuumed, Steam cleaned my carpet, Mopped the house, Did the Laundry, Emailed and Deleted photos. Well enough with the summary of boring things but I just want to talk about the sweetest things. There are always going to be a series or events that happen and are meant to happen in peoples lives, whether you see this or not is all on perception and realization. Through these events we grow, we love, we cherish the memories and moments that were created. Sometimes we regret ( I hate that word ) but I live trying not to regret a lot in my life. Most of all we learn to forgive. In the last couple months, I've learned to let go of certain beliefs. Ideas that were mere lies to myself. I've opened up in more ways than one, I am literally trying to come out of a shell. I thought I did this years ago but that...

Yes I went to the opening game of the Vancouver Canucks. I had faith in them to win but they didn't pull through. My H.Sedin Got a goal which gave me points on my fantasy pool team, but Luongo caused me to lose points. I'm so sad about that. But it was a good outlet. Screaming and cheering. I'm such a loud fan. And I realized I'm expressive person when it comes to music. I'll move to a good beat, anywhere, anytime with anyone.

I didn't blog yesterday on one account. I was SO tired. I not only had a huge lack of sleep due to my obsessive and whimpering dog. I was asked in the mid early afternoon if I wanted to join my sister and her fiancee and sister for a hike. I asked how long and I was assured that it would only be one hour or so. I turned out to be a four hour long hike in a park in North Vancouver, Lynn Headwaters Regional Park. Though it was a good work out and I brought along my D60 to work on my photography skills and to build my stock photography collection. It was a 4 hour hike. I come home, chat to Sean, help him out with his logo redevelopment and I'm out. I lay back into bed, curl up and fall a sleep, I leave my door open for the dog, I hear him whimper at my bed wanting to sleep with me but I ignore him and I get the best sleep I've had in a long time. Here are some pics from our Hike. My sister climbing a tree, a mushroom who's top looks like a burger, Me, Joey Dog, and nat...

Mr. CC in the last 4 days has gone missing 5 times. 2 times today. He kept me up again this morning, I love pandas and all but looking like one due to the lack of sleep is just NOT COOL. This morning I was already up before I started messaging back and forth my FRNZ Friend all the way in Toronto. Who was getting their eyes checked. Amazing that they were even able to read my text messages with their eyes all dilated. I head out to return some cans and bottles at the bottle depot. Only to lose some as I opened the trunk of the van. The blue bin which was filled with cans and glass bottles had some how slid to the back and tipped over a bit leaning up against the trunk door. I open it and... they came clashing down. We lose about a handful of glass bottles but they're nothing to cry over. Our return gets us nothing but bus fare. We get home only find that CC had escaped again in some magical way. I run down and around the block, our neighbors say they haven't seen him go by. I g...

For More... Well this morning I woke up with a smile, I don't remember the last time I did. I decided to do something that some advised against but I just did it. I wrote a long e-mail to the mother of my X boyfriend. Apologizing for the fact that I was never really myself when I was around her. I also noted to her that I thought she was a great mom. Intimidating but still great. I thanked her for the memories, and wished her and her family nothing but the best. And that was it. That's the summary. I wrote to her in the spirit of a project that I've been planning to launch for sometime now. I took one step closer and contacted a friend to see if he would like to help me out with this project. Now it is in the works more than ever. Note: *You always need the right people to work with. It makes a difference. It really does. I sign up with a design site to help me make some more income =) now I'm looking into all the rules and regulations. Before I can do anything else....