Behind SyloArts

After this morning I filmed and I left as I let it upload. I walked down Spadina and walked down towards Queen st. West. and stuck to one side going one way where I reached a park and turned back in time to head home. I hit up a couple and more stores that were in that area that were on my list, but I realized that the other shops I want to hit were further down. I hit up a trendy little shop and was tempted to buy my sister's little bundle of joy to be a gamma-go baby t-shirt. I also hit up another little rabbit stuffy that had a little rattle in it's head. Cute. Super Cute! I hit up Type, a nice little book shop that I can say I can spend more than an hour looking at the graphic books and other books they have in there. There I was tempted to get a children's book about a little rabbit as well for my sister. >_< I don't even know if it's a boy or a girl yet! Right next door The Paper Place. Where I was amazed to see some new innovative pop up calenders, very...

DAY TWO. I wake up and we head out to eat breakfast at Cora's we were lucky enough to beat a bit of a line up. By the time we left the line was just about the hit the end of the block. We walk on over the CN tower and the view is amazing, Frankie tells me that if we didn't have an over cast I would be able to see the whole of T.O. and see how ridiculously big of a city it is. He wonders if it overwhelms me. To be honest, it doesn't. Young-Dundas Square amazed me when we drove by it the other night. It makes me think of an other city that I would like to see one day. New York. I come to think where does Vancouver stands in a development of a city. I mean it is a young city, but it's not particularly smart and it some how to me it feels very slow in becoming to what it should already be. Does that make any sense? Although it is voted one of the most livable cities in the world. We're not as nearly as technology savvy as we should be, our transportation is well branche...

I left Vancouver last night from YVR around 11pm and landed in Toronto a little after 6am (*toronto time* 3am Vancouver time ) and was dead tired ( I was up 24hours straight ). The man that sat next to me was happily reading his book the half of the flight As I tried to sleep. It wasn't till we were starting our decent into Toronto when I started to feel it. The headache and neck pain from the dozing off here and there on the flight over. I touch down and I text #1) Frankie baby. #2) Everyone else. I had filmed silently a little before I had left YVR and when I was waiting to claim my baggage. My babes is there to meet me as I step out with my bags. I'm greeted with a big smile and big hug. Nothing warmer when go somewhere for the first time. =) We head home to sleep Z_Z a good sleep. We wake up and get ready to head out for our day. We head out and Frankie takes me on the street car, he hands me this coin that is a transit token of Toronto. It's very cool looking. unique ...

I'm now sitting in the airport waiting for my flight to board which is an hour from now. I'm sitting here on my iphone?! Why when I have my MacBook next to me? Stupid me? This way is faster and handheld! That's why! I'm not so nervous anymore thanks to dad's nagging. At what I wear. Telling me what I should pack. Why I'm not dressed enough. I really can go on but it will make my blood boil. Work was tedious. I don't know why LAN gave me a giant luggage now I can't buy extra stuff. I wonder. Well my shampoos. Socks? Underwear? Lingerie? LOL jkjkjk. I had to take off my boots and get a bit felt up at the gate but hey all standard to me. I don't mind. My belt buckle and watch set the detector off. I'm sleepy. I think I should shoot a little clipit or something. Dunno. Thinking. I wonder how bright it will be if I used my lappy. Ahhh I like how I can blog as I wait for my flight. I'm a bit nervous but I'm more happy about the fact that I wil...

I can't really blog cause I've been busy and will be so for the next 48 hours. So I'm going to do this really quick. I'm nervous. Seeing him for the first time in 8 years + yeah I'm nervous. He's so different. Refreshing. something I am in need of right now at this point in my life. Today is a life changing day. F- that. Everyday should be a life changing day. Emotions running up and down and round and round. It is only then you will feel alive. I'm pretty sure I'm ready. I have to design something really quick for someone but yeah.

Yup! I bought a Tokidoki. I couldn't help myself for 130$ Canadian. I found it at winners. I have one already but that was a gift from the X. I almost douche kicked some people when coming down the stairs from the skytrain. They were walking so slow that I missed my bus. I was SO MAD! then I went shopping. I got the bag at winners. I then went to Bestbuy and got my camera battery and a camera case for the Nikon Cool Pix I have. It's already got some scratches from being in my purse. Thank God it has a screen protector on it. I'm now thinking do I want to keep the bag, give it to my sister. Keep this one give the old one to the sister? cause I have a feeling her baby may color in the lines one day thinking it's a carrying coloring book. Should I pick up a new luggage case or make way with what I have. I think what I have will do. I have yet to expand it and I don't think I will be shopping THAT much in T.O. I'm there to take lots of pics. Make new friends, see...

I realized I have to do this. That I have to define my own happiness. What does this mean? That I can't allow others be the definition of my happiness. *does that make sense*? Work Work. had a photoshoot. work and more work. Things I have to remind myself to get before I leave. Camera lens wipes. < I had two, now I have no clue where they are. Extra batteries for my camera and my camcorder. I'm debating if I want to buy a bigger suitcase cause the one my sister lent me was just small enough. *she's only traveled to hot places*  I'm going to one during the brink of winter. Which means, I'm packing extra socks, jacket, pants. clothes....damn it.  I'm getting a bigger suitcase. >_< but i don't wanna spend money on one. Things to focus on before I leave. Designing an invite and designing a birthday card.

I went to my big sisters baby shower today. She's due in Jan. I will be an aunt, a real aunt soon. The excitement of that has yet to really really hit me. I guess I'm not worried cause my sister is going to be a great mom. I was really shy to mingle. Everyone else seemed to know someone else there in their little groups. It was funny how I walked in with a smile and a "HELLO" and people look at me like @_@, "who is she?" .  I almost burst out laughing when walked up to a large circle group of friends with a big smile and a HUGE wave hello. It's interesting to watch other people's reaction. I opened up just a little, but I kinda felt out of place. Alone really. Lan's (*my big sis*)  life is all focused on this baby cause she has to be. I'm focused on me. Thinking to myself that it's so great things are going so great for her. And then there's me. Working my way and building my foundation all over again. This time hopefully things will ...

I got this off a friends, friend on facebook. It's very true, yet a part of me believes in originality still.

Lately I've been describing the guy I'm currently "seeing" ( I say this cause we see each other but I don't know, it's hard to explain. ) like a dream. I ask myself is he for real? not just a figment of my imagination. That I haven't gone crazy in the last couple months and my psyche created this fantastic great guy @_@. My cousin assures me that I'm not, that he's real. And I turn to her and ask her. Are you real? @_@ . LOL . *smiles* She's been staying with me for six months now and will be going home today. I'm going to miss her so much. I confided with her, she helped me go through my break up and we had lots and lots of great laughs together. She saw everything from both sides. She has now been the only other person in my life that has ever seen things from my side of the looking glass. Thank You. LX. when you read this. I just want to say. I love you. You will always have someone that loves you, even though I may be half a world awa...

Yes I hate this combination, I'm walking home from the bus stop and as I step out of the bus the ground is covered with SLUSH! I hate slush. The lighting and thunder didn't calm my nerves either. I'm whiny crying as my high-top dunks and jeans are getting wet and my feet are getting cold as I make my way home. *uuuhhhhhhh huuuhhhh huhhhhh* (ugly sobbing)

Yes I did a video naming the first 100 things that I want to do in life. Life Goals My list of goals are not new, but the next one hundred will be. I video recorded this so that when I start to post achievement videos people won't start thinking I'm crazy when I post. Life Goal number what what. I'm hoping to break a handful of these goals when I get to Toronto. So I'm going to be in for a load of filming and fun.

There is a number of things that happened today that really put me in a panic. Or made me feel like. WTF! This morning I made breakfast for me and cousin LX before we left for the bus, purchasing all day passes so we can go where ever for the whole day traveling between cities. I took Cousin LX to go bowling. She did a great job her first time out! we bowled for an hour and after our fingers got a little sore. We started to head out shopping. Unexpectedly the zipper on my boot pops off. Fixable I would think. A great guy at Rev's who worked there was kind enough to supply me with safety pins before I made it to Brentwood Mall. I thought well since it was a simple zipper fix, I the lady at the clothing place maybe able to fix it for me. She says NO, ( without ever looking at it ) and sends me next door to the shoe fixing place. The man at the shoe fixing place wasn't very much help either. He didn't look at my problem either and said he couldn't help me cause I'd ha...

Well I did a number of things this morning that involves me looking ahead. What I need to do, what I need to get and what will be in store. I ordered more contacts cause I find myself running low. I love my colored contacts, well because I've only been wearing them the last year or so. This time I ordered more Grey and Blue, I've never tried blue and the odds of that color standing out with my eyes are probably slim. I cleaned up my room a bit more. Placing bags that are filled with things that are needed to return to my sister up into my closet. My luggage is currently being partly packed for Toronto. Yes. Early to pack, but I'm eager about my trip. I did all my laundry, chat a bit with FL. I feel so different when I think about him, how he treats me. Maybe because he is different than any of the guys I've been with before. There is something about him that makes me smile, the little things that mean so much. *smiles* . The motivation I feel to be better, to be me and ...

I'm feeling something very strange right now as I lay here watching TV, thinking to myself. Each day comes closer to my trip to Toronto. I'm nervous, excited, I really can't explain this feeling I'm feeling in the pit of my stomach. I really gotta start planing this trip soon. What I'm going to do on my days there. Should I just wander and go photography crazy? I've also been feeling that I'm missing something. It's not what I'm missing really. It's what I should have, what I'm working towards to gain again. My life. My life as a whole, understanding who exactly I am and what I should live for. I'm almost there, it's so close, I can feel it. I'm living now for me, for love, for life. =)

I'm worried about someone right now, I don't know, I just want him to be alright. B. is a great guy but he just needs to find that strength he has within him to pull through this. A part of me also worries if I added anything to his stress, his heartache, I hope I didn't. Burning + Deleting: Well this refers to files on my laptop and external hard drive. Burning off X-related files and deleted them. I reordered my aeroplans card that I believe he still has which he says he can't find. I keep cleaning out my room going through things and small items keep turning up that are his that have been miss looked, I'm gathering them up and bagging them and will soon drop them off when I find the time to. I soon hope to cut the final strings that no longer need to be tied to this relationship. My last dream confirmed that my emotions and energy shouldn't be wasted on him anymore. My time has been wasted enough and I'm tired. I feel like I'm playing catch up to w...

Anyways I picked up two design magazines in the last two days. One is Applied Arts, annual awards issue. Another is a web design magazine. Well here is a cool little link that I will keep in mind and blog for remembrance. ♥ Digital Artist Awards:  http://www.digitalartistawards.com/

No no, It's still me that writes in this blog. I just added my big sis as an admin so she can interrupt my blog posts when she feels like ranting. Also when she feels like editing some stuff.  Friday the 13th. Well I had the best sleep after going to bed at 10:30 - 11pm at night. Woke up by B. who was having relationship problems and me being me. Always wants to be there for everyone that means something. The bus never came this morning, was about to run into an oncoming car catching the other going the other way. I valued my life more than being on time for work, so I chose to be late. But my work is cool that way so I just texted the boss with a heads up. Designed, Designed and Designed at work. After work I decided to go to Sportmart to buy some Hockey Tape to fix my crow mask that ripped apart as we were about the film the last bit of the day earlier this week. Only the find that the Sportmart downtown doesn't carry hockey tape. -_- I ended up heading down to Canadian Tire ...

Anyways this morning I ate a fruit cup and left for work. On the train I start doing the crossword. mmm where is that thing I was doing really well today! *minutes pass* okay I'm stuck.  Well work was... how you say... interesting. Polishing up a trade show booth design and working on a website design. On my lunch break I snacked on a ice cream cone and read Hugh's facebook notes. What he calls his "Confessions of an Innocent Japanese School Boy" I was laughing at them as I was reading. Trying not to laugh out loud. Giggling, my boss comes over and asks if I'm alright. Apparently he thought I was crying.  FL calls me as I'm working to ask me what seat I would like on my flight over to Toronto, since he was on the phone with the airline. I'm an isle person, considering I go pee a lot cause I'm a small person with a small bladder. But I thought it was very sweet for him to call me and ask me for my opinion. His consideration for me makes me fall even mor...

I come from a noodle from family. Back home in Brunei, my uncle still runs the Noodle shop in Seria that was once started by grandpa. In Miri, Malaysia another branch of the Lo Noodle Family Shop. Today Dad brought me and cousin LX to go eat at a restaurant in Burnaby called Lao Shan Dong. A Homemade noodle shop restaurant. Located right across the street from Metrotown. I've been wanting to go eat there for a while and it was well worth it. Couldn't eat it all and had to pack up all the meat I couldn't finish but it was good. I wish dad didn't cheap out on the tip. But their service was fast and they didn't really come back to check up on us. But I would go back and eat there, sometime soon? I don't know about that. Another place of my favorite is somewhere I always go to get take out Downtown Vancouver. Is Alberni Market. The Auntie that preps the food there is great, she's so sweet and her food is so delicious. I tried to talk her into teaching me how to ...

This shouldn't happen, my brain shouldn't play such emotional tricks on me. I go to sleep happy thinking of a little someone that I'm going to see in T.O. and when I went to sleep in my dream I saw the X. I wake up emotionally distraught. I don't understand why I would even still see him in my dreams. It has been SO long that I last saw him there. It's over. I want another guy to be the man of my dreams. More than that to be honest. More than just the guy of my dreams but reality.

Good morning. i came across something really cool. My friend had posted this on facebook. http://unlimited.orange.co.uk/flash/go The fun never ends.

Well this isn't supposed to be my first crow stunt. The real crow stunt had to be delayed due to the cloudy and raining days we've been having. Especially on my days off! When I get to do the real one, it's going to be well worth it. :) But On Monday (yesterday) I headed over to cousin Jonny's place to visit and to film this stunt, well not really a stunt more like a little prank on Rocky. I wanted to see what his reaction would be if I were to confront him in the crow costume. Outcome is on the video. All in all it was a great shoot. Bunch of laughs. My heart always seems to melt when I see Rocky. I love big dogs. On my way to Jonny's house the wind was blowing and a little rain was coming down and we were busing it there. Cousin LX says as we head for the cross walk towards the bus stop that it can't be worse than what she was doing, holding on to her hood and walking. I asked her, Can't it?! and turned to her with my hood clipped and me looking like an...

No, this blog entry isn't 6,000 steps / guidelines to love. This is story has a staircase of 6,000 steps that was handcrafted through love. I received this through email this morning from Cousin Alice. To View A Video released from a news story click here I loved watching this, ( in Mandarin by the way ) you can see how the grandma's face still glows as she reminisces about their story. You can see how much she loves him. One of 10 Famous Chinese Love Stories in China, Chong Qing (Sichuan) I would be so lucky to feel this kind of devotion and love in my life time <3

I spent a couple hours last night ( fell asleep and woke back up ) and a couple hours this morning watching something that's educated my self being for the better. Cousin Jonny has an assignment due and I asked what it was about and etc. He tells me it's on a video he had to watch called, "The Age Of Aids". I decided to watch this. Why? Why would I spend 4 hours of my life watching this? Because out of the millions upon millions that have died, people that live and are affected one way or another, this is an entity that exists and will continue to do so for many years to come. Watch the video: "The Age Of Aids" I named my blog this morning on the fact that it only starts with one. One choice, one action, one cause, one affect and something a lot of people seem to take for granted and over look. One Life. The saddest moment watching this whole video to me was at the very end. When a little girl who's around the age of 6-8 years old asks the doctor, why s...

I don't know what it is. How it always seems to end with me wanting to end my life or at least something close to it. I try my hardest to keep my wall up so my metal state can keep stable and strong but I wasn't made a robot. I did what I needed to do today, set up Hot Pot, all the food, cut this cut that etc. with the help of cousin LX here and there. When it comes time to everyone gathering and eating my dad first starts commenting on me and how stupid I am. On the dip concoction that I always make. He says I'm stupid, when in reality he has never tried it himself if it's good. Later on near the end of my meal, he comments how irresponsible I am on my eating habits that I don't eat enough fruits and vegetables. I had just finished off plate full of veggies. My dad has no idea who I really am. How in the morning sometimes on my way to work I will drop by a salad-loop and pick up nearly 12$ worth of veggies and fruits to eat. Just cause he doesn't see me doing ...

I feel a sudden burst of sadness. Am I missing something? :(

I was all nervous this morning about my artful return. Making my way down to the art show with cousin LX was a rough journey. I realized that I'm not really a tall heels person. So if I want sexy heals they better be very comfortable. I had to run to a pharmasave on the way there to get a lint brush roller cause I was covered in dog hair without realizing it when I left the house. I was lint brushing myself with the help of cousin LX at the bus stop. Really it was pretty entertaining to look at if you were paying attention. The skytrain was filled with people, the most that I've seen on a weekend. During this ride my feet were killing me and I only got a chance to sit down for a moment before I gave my seat up to a grandma and grandpa couple. It was only the last 1/3rd of our trip that I get to sit down. But I get to the show. And the rest is up for you to see. Yes I received an honorable mention award. =) Thank you CCAF and CCC. This is just a picture of me fooling ar...

I'm nervous as I'm about to get ready for my first art show in 2.5+ years. I've done this so many times before. But I've never been in an absence for the longest time and just return. I love painting, I miss painting, I think about painting and plan in the back of my mind what my next painting should be. I know the next time I bring my paint brush to that rice paper, I'm going to be doing it with the rest of the world watching. Yes I will be youtubing my next painting. What should I wear. *sigh* I know that the a lot of people around the world is supporting what I do. But, they're around the world. I feel like it's my first art show .. 6 years ago. I don't know what to expect since this is an juried art show as well. The last one I participated in that was an juried show was in 2006 that was held at the Vancouver public library. Wish me luck ... time to get ready... put my game face on.

My blog title tonight is one that is for Frankie who just got his eyes lasered and is seeing 20-20 now. YAY *clapping my hands* So when he gets better he should check this sweet new design of a bike that I came across on dexigner. *click link here* But no, I'm also reflecting on the fact of seeing other things clearly. My boss takes me out to lunch today since things have gotten a bit hectic at work. ALL of a sudden. There was a period of time when it was just once and while but then BAM there was all this work to do all at once. He's happy though at how things are going with the business and I think to myself if things happen to move in a different direction for me, how do I break it to him. I feel bad if I was just up and give notice that I'm leaving, *not yet* but really thinking about moving on in a sense. He goes on to tell me how some of my work thus far was done very well and how it went on get more work from different sources. The snowball effect. That's how...

I went to sleep early and woke up so early. 4am! Well today is Frankie baby's laser eye surgery day. I wish I was there to be with him and see him through this. It has to be a bit nerve wrecking. The days are counting down as I get closer to my trip to Toronto. I'm excited, nervous, anxious. =) In my heart I know it's going to be great. Somethings you just feel it. I'm also excited about tomorrow. Am I really going to get an award? Did my painting really get one of the best of show? mmm... I think to myself, the painting is about 2-3 years old. If I painted one now, how much more awesome can I paint? ... *smiles* ... the more I continue to paint, I wonder at what point am I considered a master of the art. I guess when you're so good that you paint things by heart, no images, no references. I can't even do that yet. Some things I can but there are some that I paint and I just want to get it as realistic as possible. As I paint it in the Chinese style. I put u...

I love the concept and message. :)

Even though I was running late this morning I had that it was a good day feeling. I did however wake up to find my phone that was plugged into my comp to charge had shut off during the night / morning. I woke up wondering why my alarm didn't wake me and why I woke up myself. I reached for my phone and it was off. I turned it on to find it was almost seven. I quickly open up the laptop to check my messages and found no emails. I thought to myself =( *baby must still be upset* . Last night when me and him said our goodbyes, I thought to myself, we are alike in that sense. When someone upsets me greatly. I'll have a vent moment but I'll have a long moment of time where I'll be very quiet. VERY PISSED. My mind will be raging because whatever whomever had just offended me was unjustified to do so. I keep a lot of anger in for a number of reasons. I don't feel the rest of the world needs more negativity spewing from me. You won't only not hear a word from me when I...

Yeah, Downtown has been hectic. It didn't help when the heater in my office busts and can't seem to stop! All the offices on our level had their doors opened due to this mishap and what do I get out of it... a fireball of a headache as I work in this weird warm office. Last night after work I come home and is told to make dinner. I do the salmon thing again, no thank yous were received just complaints. I don't understand if that's all I'm going to get, why I'm told to do it in the first place. I mean they are basically watching over my shoulder as I do my best with the ingredients given. I mean, what do you expect me to do with slices of ham and salmon and butter and potato? Then I was given the onions after the fact I've wrapped everything already. Can I play a mom, even if I don't have children? I'm tired, have a headache and downtown work is going to get a little more heavy with lots of work coming in. The thing is with me. When I get time off, ...

November First is here and 26 days left till I get on a plane of Toronto. The countdown in going down. Today I woke up at Lan's place. We had waffles for breakfast, and around noon we *cousin LX and Me and the sissy* clean up all the fallen leaves in her backyard. I once thought that I would like to adopt Joey dog but after picking up some of his big poops I would like to retract that statement. We head out soon after for home and then we *me and cousin LX* to the skytrain station, we head out to metro for some shopping. I look for my luggage again and a long jacket for T.O. Trip as cousin LX goes in search for clothing. I come home with two more pairs of tights and LX is happy with her finds. Luggage however, I'm still debating if I should borrow one from my parents or purchase my own and be more independent. The thing is there are lots of luggage pieces that fill up the closet of my parents closet. The following sentence is to test my cousin's pronunciation. I've bee...